Love is a Losing game

Recently I got into a catastrophic fight with 3 of my best friends. I was under the impression that they were discussing me in a less than flattering manner, and ultimately, when confronted on the issue and reading between the lines, I was right. They acted like I was being dramatic and I was out of line and so on and so forth but I know that if I was wrong, I'd feel bad about it and in all honesty I don't. I regret nothing. They were upset because I called them out on acting what I perceive to be as fake and please correct me if I'm wrong but if you can't take the heat stay out of the kitchen; if you don't want to get called fake don't be fake. I called one of them out on their facebook wall and they had such a problem with it but the way I see it, if it's not true then what's the ordeal? Provide evidence that I'm mistaken and move on with your life. But this one was by far one of the fakest because she's talked about her close friends in the past and said absolutely nothing to their faces so I wasn't too far off to suspect her of doing an identical deed to me. I may have shattered a friendship and it might be hard to go back to school but in all honesty I have no remorse, I'm not sorry for anything I've done, and if anything this is a new beginning.

I'm A Barbie Girl In A Barbie World ;)

Many have come to see Barbie as a representation of plastic and confomity; idolizing a blonde haired blue eyed woman with a perfect body. That's one way to look at it, but when I was a young girl, Barbie helped me find myself. Barbie helped me release my creative energy. You could make Barbie whoever you wanted her to be. Barbie was perfect, but nothing I aspired to be. Barbie was versatile. She could be a cotoure runway model, a doctor, or the girl next door. Barbie could be anything she wanted to be and I think that's something that should be celebrated, not criticized or reprimanded. Maybe I've been brainwashed by what seems like almost a decade of consumption, but I love Barbie - I always have and I always will. Barbie is a super hero, an inspiration, an icon, and a woman that I personally believe people can look up to. With so many celebrities in and out of rehab and the women in the media acting like they have no sense, we need Barbie more than ever. No ones perfect, but a symbol of perfection provides a center, and a balance between good and evil, wrong and right, the inner rebel and the model citizen. And the best thing about Barbie is that even she can get a little wild ;) Viva la Barbie!

Click here to see photos from the Barbie Runway Fashion Show!

http://www.dowlingphotography.com/blog/2009/02/barbie-fashion-runway-show/

Click here for Cotoure Barbie!

http://www.critseyrowe.com/blog/?p=182

One look in the mirror & I'm tickled pink; I don't give a hoot about what you think.

As you may or may not have noticed, I'm a 'mutt' which means I'm of a beautifully complicated heritage :) In the mix that I consist of, the largest doses are by far of Hispanic, so naturally I tend to identify with that more than anything else. Hispanics, or Latinos in the media are often portrayed as olive or tan skinned people with black silky hair, but in reality, that doesn't even begin to cover what Latino really is. Latino is something so deep and diverse that can't possibly be defined by a skin color or type of hair. Latino is a combination of everything gorgeous, hideous, wrong, and right in the world. But is the media really to blame when some people of Latino desecnt have the same state of mind, that if you don't look a certain way then you're not a "real" Latino? Because of the heavy variety within the groupe of people, Latinos often face a pressure to identify a certain way. Black Hispanic, White Hispanic, Native Hispanic. The very aura of "Hispanic" is one defined by unity, blending, and combinations. There is no need to divide us one way or another. There's no need for this separation or classification among us. If you ARE Latino, BE Latino. I recently ran into an article about how darker skinned Hispanics are ashamed to identify as Black Latinos or Afro-Latinos because they are ashamed of their African heritage or 'who they really are'. My personal opinion is that they don't want to be identified as "Black Latinos" because no such thing truely exists. A skin tone doesn't make one person less Hispanic than another person, and to say that it does undermines the real art of the Hispanic people.

(Arlenis Sosa is probably one of my favorite models everrr)

To read the article that inspired this post, click here:

http://www.curlynikki.com/2009/11/black-latino-identity-naturally-leslie.html

Hoe Hoe Hoe Under the Mistletoe

Merry Christmas! 2011 is approaching quickly and no matter how cliche it may seem, it's in bad taste to start a new year without a plump list of resolutions. But I'm not even sure of what I want out of this year - more than anything I know I want and need scholastic success and excellence. I want to well paying  job. I want to learn how to cut hair and learn how to do a split. I want to see my first concert and go on a party bus. I want to get my permit, maybe even my license. I want to improve my Spanish and continue my photography. I want to learn how to cook and maybe even go to the Dominican and Puerto Rican festivals in New York. Maybe in 2011 I'd like to fall in love... just once. I want to discover new stores and new restaurants, and experience my city to the fullest. I want to go to more fashion shows and meet more people. I want to do more with myself, and go to math tutoring at least twice a week. I want a crazy summer. I want more freedom. I want something different out of 2011, and although I'm not quite sure what that something is, I know I'm excited. 2010, in reflection, was a year of growth and progression for me. I learned a lot about myself and the world around me. Hopefully I can put what I learned in 2010 to use in 2011 for a better, more fabulous year.

Oh yeah and last resolution is to actually keep my new year's resolutions haha. :-*

Haters You Can Kill Yourselves

Personally I don't see a need to forge myself into a certain idea or type of person, knowing that I am a combination of far too many unique and complex things to ever be capable of that. To do that would not only be a lie, but unfair to me and everyone that knows me. I'd be cheating them, and cheating myself out of the mutt madness that I know I am. The tomboy in high heels, the Wiz Khalifa fan that's never smoked a blunt in her life, the girl wearing Lucky Brand Jeans and Uggs while she shops for a new outfit at Tello's. I'm not ashamed of any aspect of who I am, and I have no reason to be.

El Corazon No Tiene Cara

Wooooow I legit haven't posted in over a month..
UGH New Year's Resolution = become a better blogger

In the past month or so, my ex and I got back together and I almost let him break my heart, but I realized I was better than that. I've been going out with a white boy for 6 days and he treats me like a princess :). Finally someone thinks I'm as amazing as I know I am haha. After my ex & I broke up AGAIN, I decided to focus a lot less on the opposite sex and decide to date myself ^_^ And now Me & Myself are having quite the threesome with my boyfriend ;) loll

Anyways, this blog is new & improved, and I'm going to do my best to actually use it to its full potential.

That's all for now, I promiseeee to post again sooon.

Nothing Even Matters At All

Wooooow I haven't posted in so longgg... I don't even know what to say lately, sooo I guess I'll be posting lyrics until I can figure out how to materialize my thoughts via intelligent sentences until then.


Your my Devil, Your my Angel
Your my Heaven, Your my Hell
Your my Now, Your my Forever
Your my Freedom, Your my Jail
Your my Lies, Your my Truth
Your my War, Your my Truce
Your my Questions, Your my Proof
Your my Stress and your my Masseuse
Mama-say mama-say ma-ma-coo-sah
Lost in this Plastic life,
Lets Break out of this fake ass Party
Turn this in to a Classic Night
If we die in each others arms we still get laid in our Afterlife

- Kanye