Love is a Losing game

Recently I got into a catastrophic fight with 3 of my best friends. I was under the impression that they were discussing me in a less than flattering manner, and ultimately, when confronted on the issue and reading between the lines, I was right. They acted like I was being dramatic and I was out of line and so on and so forth but I know that if I was wrong, I'd feel bad about it and in all honesty I don't. I regret nothing. They were upset because I called them out on acting what I perceive to be as fake and please correct me if I'm wrong but if you can't take the heat stay out of the kitchen; if you don't want to get called fake don't be fake. I called one of them out on their facebook wall and they had such a problem with it but the way I see it, if it's not true then what's the ordeal? Provide evidence that I'm mistaken and move on with your life. But this one was by far one of the fakest because she's talked about her close friends in the past and said absolutely nothing to their faces so I wasn't too far off to suspect her of doing an identical deed to me. I may have shattered a friendship and it might be hard to go back to school but in all honesty I have no remorse, I'm not sorry for anything I've done, and if anything this is a new beginning.

I'm A Barbie Girl In A Barbie World ;)

Many have come to see Barbie as a representation of plastic and confomity; idolizing a blonde haired blue eyed woman with a perfect body. That's one way to look at it, but when I was a young girl, Barbie helped me find myself. Barbie helped me release my creative energy. You could make Barbie whoever you wanted her to be. Barbie was perfect, but nothing I aspired to be. Barbie was versatile. She could be a cotoure runway model, a doctor, or the girl next door. Barbie could be anything she wanted to be and I think that's something that should be celebrated, not criticized or reprimanded. Maybe I've been brainwashed by what seems like almost a decade of consumption, but I love Barbie - I always have and I always will. Barbie is a super hero, an inspiration, an icon, and a woman that I personally believe people can look up to. With so many celebrities in and out of rehab and the women in the media acting like they have no sense, we need Barbie more than ever. No ones perfect, but a symbol of perfection provides a center, and a balance between good and evil, wrong and right, the inner rebel and the model citizen. And the best thing about Barbie is that even she can get a little wild ;) Viva la Barbie!

Click here to see photos from the Barbie Runway Fashion Show!

http://www.dowlingphotography.com/blog/2009/02/barbie-fashion-runway-show/

Click here for Cotoure Barbie!

http://www.critseyrowe.com/blog/?p=182

One look in the mirror & I'm tickled pink; I don't give a hoot about what you think.

As you may or may not have noticed, I'm a 'mutt' which means I'm of a beautifully complicated heritage :) In the mix that I consist of, the largest doses are by far of Hispanic, so naturally I tend to identify with that more than anything else. Hispanics, or Latinos in the media are often portrayed as olive or tan skinned people with black silky hair, but in reality, that doesn't even begin to cover what Latino really is. Latino is something so deep and diverse that can't possibly be defined by a skin color or type of hair. Latino is a combination of everything gorgeous, hideous, wrong, and right in the world. But is the media really to blame when some people of Latino desecnt have the same state of mind, that if you don't look a certain way then you're not a "real" Latino? Because of the heavy variety within the groupe of people, Latinos often face a pressure to identify a certain way. Black Hispanic, White Hispanic, Native Hispanic. The very aura of "Hispanic" is one defined by unity, blending, and combinations. There is no need to divide us one way or another. There's no need for this separation or classification among us. If you ARE Latino, BE Latino. I recently ran into an article about how darker skinned Hispanics are ashamed to identify as Black Latinos or Afro-Latinos because they are ashamed of their African heritage or 'who they really are'. My personal opinion is that they don't want to be identified as "Black Latinos" because no such thing truely exists. A skin tone doesn't make one person less Hispanic than another person, and to say that it does undermines the real art of the Hispanic people.

(Arlenis Sosa is probably one of my favorite models everrr)

To read the article that inspired this post, click here:

http://www.curlynikki.com/2009/11/black-latino-identity-naturally-leslie.html

Hoe Hoe Hoe Under the Mistletoe

Merry Christmas! 2011 is approaching quickly and no matter how cliche it may seem, it's in bad taste to start a new year without a plump list of resolutions. But I'm not even sure of what I want out of this year - more than anything I know I want and need scholastic success and excellence. I want to well paying  job. I want to learn how to cut hair and learn how to do a split. I want to see my first concert and go on a party bus. I want to get my permit, maybe even my license. I want to improve my Spanish and continue my photography. I want to learn how to cook and maybe even go to the Dominican and Puerto Rican festivals in New York. Maybe in 2011 I'd like to fall in love... just once. I want to discover new stores and new restaurants, and experience my city to the fullest. I want to go to more fashion shows and meet more people. I want to do more with myself, and go to math tutoring at least twice a week. I want a crazy summer. I want more freedom. I want something different out of 2011, and although I'm not quite sure what that something is, I know I'm excited. 2010, in reflection, was a year of growth and progression for me. I learned a lot about myself and the world around me. Hopefully I can put what I learned in 2010 to use in 2011 for a better, more fabulous year.

Oh yeah and last resolution is to actually keep my new year's resolutions haha. :-*

Haters You Can Kill Yourselves

Personally I don't see a need to forge myself into a certain idea or type of person, knowing that I am a combination of far too many unique and complex things to ever be capable of that. To do that would not only be a lie, but unfair to me and everyone that knows me. I'd be cheating them, and cheating myself out of the mutt madness that I know I am. The tomboy in high heels, the Wiz Khalifa fan that's never smoked a blunt in her life, the girl wearing Lucky Brand Jeans and Uggs while she shops for a new outfit at Tello's. I'm not ashamed of any aspect of who I am, and I have no reason to be.

El Corazon No Tiene Cara

Wooooow I legit haven't posted in over a month..
UGH New Year's Resolution = become a better blogger

In the past month or so, my ex and I got back together and I almost let him break my heart, but I realized I was better than that. I've been going out with a white boy for 6 days and he treats me like a princess :). Finally someone thinks I'm as amazing as I know I am haha. After my ex & I broke up AGAIN, I decided to focus a lot less on the opposite sex and decide to date myself ^_^ And now Me & Myself are having quite the threesome with my boyfriend ;) loll

Anyways, this blog is new & improved, and I'm going to do my best to actually use it to its full potential.

That's all for now, I promiseeee to post again sooon.

Nothing Even Matters At All

Wooooow I haven't posted in so longgg... I don't even know what to say lately, sooo I guess I'll be posting lyrics until I can figure out how to materialize my thoughts via intelligent sentences until then.


Your my Devil, Your my Angel
Your my Heaven, Your my Hell
Your my Now, Your my Forever
Your my Freedom, Your my Jail
Your my Lies, Your my Truth
Your my War, Your my Truce
Your my Questions, Your my Proof
Your my Stress and your my Masseuse
Mama-say mama-say ma-ma-coo-sah
Lost in this Plastic life,
Lets Break out of this fake ass Party
Turn this in to a Classic Night
If we die in each others arms we still get laid in our Afterlife

- Kanye

I Make You Bloom Like A Flower That You've Never Seen

I haven't written in foreverr >:O
Junior year is ridiculouss.
I need a vacation.

I'm back on tumblr.
I've decided to take my photography seriously,
but I really have no idea where to start ..

I have an overwhelming need to shop. RIGHT NOW.

This Message Is Brought To You By BAD BITCHES & GOOD WEED*

It's Friday night. I'm at home, and unoccupied.

Things I love about BLICKIIEH

1. Blickiieh is a hot mixed biddy
2. Blickiieh can dressss
3. Blickiieh is enlightened
4. Blickiieh has a BODY
5. Blickiieh's personality despite the unpredictability and bipolarness 
6. Blickiieh's INDEPENDENT
7. Blickiieh will soon be EMPLOYED
8. Blickiieh is sooo freakin hottttt 
9. Blickiieh is beautiful
10. Blickiieh has sex appeal and is also classy
11. Blickiieh is not afraid to be herself
12. Blickiieh is Not human
13. Blickiieh is strong
14. Blickiieh will be successful
15. Blickiieh DGAF 
16. Blickiieh has great taste in Boys, Music, Clothes, and Food - you never know what she'll be craving next
17. Blickiieh is a REAL person - No Bull. It's authentic, uncensored ME.
18. Blickiieh is not phased
19. Blickiieh is cultured

<3 The End.

What The Fugg?!

- This is Me, Blickiieh, staying true to my word about keeping this blog alive (: ANYWHOM ;

I personally take fashion very seriously. It's practically religious for me. I breathe fashion, I sleep fashion, I eat fashion - I live fashion. I esteem myself on being a pioneer; able to look past trends and celebrities for inspiration. I recently read an article about how teens like me will pay $200 for the same thing that costs $30, only without the name brand. I take pride in seeing fashion for what it really IS - art. Not a label, not a price tag; art. Louis Vuitton, Coco Chanel, Dolce & Gabbana, and Vera Wang are PHENOMENAL artists. But there are equally phenomenal artists vending at Marshall's, Wet Seal, and unknown boutiques hidden around the city like burried treasure. In the article I read, the author made a point that made me question myself as the independent thinker I fancy myself to be. "What Makes A Girl In Uggs More Fashionable Than A Girl In Bearpaws?" I've never been a fan of fuggs - I was strongly opposed to them, in all honesty, because I hate imitation anything. Uggs are about comfort, and made out of the most heavenly sheep skin with the warmest caress, so I automatically assumed that all Ugg like boots that WEREN'T Uggs were only manufactured so that girls who couldn't afford real Uggs could still pull off the Ugg look. Uggs symbolize this laid back, relaxed American girl - and whether people realize it or not it symbolizes luxury in the sense of being able to blow give or take $175 for bulky warm boots that are by no means necessary, or even very attractive in reality. In American culture, where things are casual, Uggs have become a "cute" thing, but if you look at them for what they really are, there's nothing very cute about them. I'm not excluded from the American Ugg affair, I'm just able to see things the way they are. Anyways, getting back to the point, Uggs have become very fashionable, and there are certain looks that only a pair of Uggs can compliment correctly, and if a girl can't afford authentic Australian Uggs, should she be forbidden to wear a certain look? Absolutely not. And although I'm not speaking from first hand experience, I've heard that there are some extremely comfortable fugg brands. What I'm really saying is, stop trying to restrict fashion with monetary amounts. Let fashion live, let fashion breathe, let fashion RUN WILD. Let fashion manifest itself in every way it sees fit *

I don't "do" fashion. I AM fashion.

I've decided to rededicate myself to making this blog a daily thing for me, because I've been slacking BIG TIME lately. Anyways, today I was at H&M looking for something to wear to an interview I have tomorrow and I was awed and amazed at how high fashion it really is. I've been a fan of H&M since the 6th grade, at least, and I always thought of it as affordable fashion, but today I was honestly blown away. Because of the low price tags, people underestimate H&M and other stores like it, but in reality, they're Herculean fashion forces. Anyone that uses money to define fashion is clearly doesn't know the first thing about fashion. Fashion is something so abstract and beautiful that can be found in so many different places... to think it can only be found in stores with high security and where everything is paid for on credit is not only ignorant, but offensive. I dare say that there are looks you can create at H&M that could rival looks created in Chanel or Dior. Shopping is a liberating experience for me; I'm like a pioneer of fashion- I venture to think beyond what the media tries to spoon feed me and use everything around me as inspiration.

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night; I miss the way we sleep

It's been waaaaaay too long since I've written >:O
but i haven't really known what to say, so umm -- this is something I wrote awhile ago just letting my thoughts run wild. [ $ 9 , 4 . 10 )

Nothing about love is the way it should be - better yet the way we want it to be. It's messy, confusing, unconventional - the one thing that's supposed to be perfect couldn't be farther from it. Love can come and leave, burn with passion and freeze with agony, destroy and create.... Love knows no boundaries. One of the scariest things about love is how sneaky it is. Love is found in the most unexpected places at the most unexpected times. Love can't really be defined by a clever combination of words - nor should it be. Love is defined by the moments that make you stop and appreciate them for everything they are; the moments that you can hardly function because you're so overwhelmed by this presence of this person who, despite their flaws and faults, is absolutely perfect according to you; the moments that turn your bad day into a good one with a simple kiss, hug, or even a text; the moments where for the first time in a long time, you feel like you're living a dream; for once you have everything you want. Love is brutal. Love takes no prisoners. Love can be quite hateful, ironically.

I think I may have tasted love?

The boy I can't get my mind off of... I don't want to say I loved him or was in love with him... but I remember the first day I talked to him. I remember the first time he texted me. I remember sooo much about him that I wish I could forget, but can't. We broke up on July 23rd. It's September 24th. The fact that I'm not over him or even INTERESTED in other guys says a lot. No one I "talk" to means anything to me - they're objects of entertainment and distraction - insignificant, disposable, replaceable. It's a pitiful situation I'm in. I know he liked me, but i KNOW he's not thinking about me. I know he's over me, and I know he's not mine and never will be mine again. But it's so hard when you're supposed to live your life pretending the person you woke up and fell asleep thinking about didn't even exist.

La Vida Es Asi

i haven't been writing at ALL :( i guess i had too many vague complicated feelings to verbalize. anyways.. i find it soo sad that so many people aren't allowed to see the beauty and perfection in them because they're so concerned about how others define "beautiful". i struggled with that a lot in my past; especially from 7th - 10th grade (i'm going into my junior year), but i'm at a point in my life where i realize that "beautiful" is what you MAKE it, and the best version of YOURSELF is gorgeous, and perfect just the way it is. appreciating your own beauty allows you to see beauty in other people, and makes you a happier, more confident person in general. don't compare yourself to others - it takes away from the gorgeous person that you are, and prevents you from reaching your full potential.

(some quotes to inspire)

"It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not" - Author Unknown


"Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are" - Author Unknown


"Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent" - Eleanor Roosevelt


"Aerodynamically the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn't know that so it goes on flying anyway" - Mary Kay Ash


"Always act like you're wearing an invisible crown" - Author Unknown


"Nothing reduces the odds against you like ignoring them" - Robert Brault


"To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are" - Author Unknown


"Pay no attention to what critics say. A statue has never been erected in honor of a critic" - Jean Sibelius

(photobucket, and the last one is from dolliecrave)