live & let die

soo it's day 3. and i'm over the place as far as emotions go & as you can probably already guess, it's about my stupid amazing fantastic wonderful ex. idk why i cant get over this. i dont understand why i cant take reality for what it is. i went through our old text messages today, and it was ridiculous how much they made me smile. every time i get a text a small naiive part of me hopes that its him, or that when i come home one day he'll be waiting for me on my porch. i keep hoping that Love Story, Taylor Swift can become my reality and that my fabulous life will fall back into place. but it never is, and it never will be. im trying to accept that life isn't a disney movie, but for a hopeless romantic such as myself, it's easier said than done. it drives me crazy that i KNOW how irrational i'm being, and i still can't change the way i feel. we only went out for two weeks, and i'm a wreck, two weeks later. ridiculous.

(blickiieh orginal.. i really like this one)